thought i’d be moving this weekend but once again plans are changed… next weekend, if possible. it feels like it’s so far away :( i just want to leave
i still get comments like “why can’t ur bf support u? ur not tryin hard enough🤪” so, to reiterate:
my boyfriend CANNOT support me on his own, financially. he works 24/7 and sometimes he still is just barely scraping by. he can’t shoulder my medical bills, food/needs for my dog and me, or anything else really. the most he can do is buy me stuff i need like hygiene items or fast food, small things like that. but he is willing to let me live with him; he has the room. his only requirement is that i am able to somewhat support myself and find a job because i can’t just mooch off of him forever. that’s why i need the help.
i am trying my fucking best and this was literally my last resort. i’ve been fighting against my mom for YEARS. i can’t do this shit on my own. i’ve tried for so long.
It’s always okay to vent to me. I’m not the best at giving advice but I’ll try.
I’m sorry about your faltering relationship with your mother. Perhaps she’s missing your dad too, and is too focused on that to acknowledge you…? I know my mom would get super stressed out when my dad would work late shifts and never be home. She wasn’t a very “hands on” kind of mom - she preferred her kids to be occupied so she’d have peace and quiet. My dad was the one to keep us all in check. I’m assuming your mom could be the same? But I know that isn’t always the case.
Have you tried doing things together with her? Maybe going to see a movie, joining her on grocery trips, or helping her with chores or dinner? I know they aren’t like… AMAZING changes to your routine but maybe she just needs you to take the lead and engage things. Even if they’re small tasks, you get to spend time with her. Take it one step at a time.
And of course, the shitty choice - try to talk to her. Even just being honest can be a big change or set new things in motion.
I don’t really understand much when it comes to mothers because mine was very distant. We had a lot of fun times, sure, but they were brief and never lasted. I try to tell myself that my mom is dealing with a lot of anger and issues and that’s why she’s the way she is, but I just don’t know. Nobody can really know unless they speak up, and it’s scary to ask them why.
I’m sorry if my words didn’t help much but I really hope your relationship improves… everyone deserves a loving mother. Or just… a good mother. I sympathize with you so much and I want you to be happy with her. Neglect can also be abuse, so please be smart and cautious and don’t be afraid to rely on others for help.
okay, so im currently at my boyfriend’s house and we’ve got some plans in motion. on Monday im going to open up a bank account in his town for all of the money everyone donated; that way my family can’t access it. he works every day the upcoming week & double shifts on some days so our time is limited but if we get the chance, he’s gonna take me around to apply for jobs.
after that, well… i just have to successfully move out. I don’t have TOO much with me but it won’t all fit in his car so we need to rent a uhaul.
i was forced by my mom to register for college last week to keep up the ruse with her (that I’m gonna go to college and behave) but i’m going to withdraw once i know my boyfriend can take me in to live with him.
after i move in, i have to figure out what to prioritize. i think finding a doctor (whether an orthopedic doctor or a physiotherapist) is best. it’ll be stupidly expensive because i don’t have health insurance but my back is too awful for me to put this off any longer.
once again, thank you to everyone who has helped me… i’ve been donated over $1k and it still doesn’t feel real to me. i’m terrified it’s a dream and it’ll disappear before i can secure it in a bank account. i have so much hope though and i can’t wait for 2019 to be a better year towards a better life.
I’ll post an update later this week! I’m trying to avoid my computer as much as possible because my back is at new levels of pain.
hey
guess what
you’re so close to surviving 2018
you can make it
i’m so proud that you’re still here
keep going buddy
i love you
the world hasn’t killed us yet and it’s gonna regret that
this is honestly the most uplifting and hopeful thing i have read regarding my continued existence.
Please don’t ever apologize for thinking something you said was dumb - I appreciated every single word.
You deserve so much better than how your step dad treats you… if he still treats you this way, PLEASE find help. What he’s doing to you is child abuse. Talk to someone at school like a counselor or a teacher you trust. They can help you, I promise. Someone can visit your home and check up on you regularly and can even talk to you at school, like mini therapy sessions. In extreme situations, don’t be scared to call police. You can call 911 and pretend you’re talking to a friend or ordering pizza so your dad doesn’t get suspicious. They will ask you if you know you’re on the phone with an emergency operator, and when you say yes, they’ll ask if you can’t say anything because a violent/harmful person is in the room and you again should say yes. I’ve done that before to save myself from physical abuse.
Please please stay safe, it absolutely breaks my heart that you have to experience this. Please don’t feel bad for not being able to donate, either. I completely understand and have no hard feelings against those that can’t donate.
Stay strong, and if you ever need me you can always message me ❤️
(the screenshots above are from a conversation with my sister, who successfully escaped my mother’s abuse.) i’ve never made a post like this but i’m incredibly heartbroken and incredibly desperate. i don’t know what else to do.
i’m a 19 year old girl that lives with a narcissistic/emotionally abusive mother and a physically abusive 23 year old brother and have suffered under their abuse for years. i live in a very, very small town in the mountains and have applied for numerous jobs numerous times and have had no luck. i have no source of income and my family prefers to keep it that way so that i can never leave.
i also have a serious, chronic back injury that they are preventing me from getting treatment for, as well as several mental illnesses that they refused to help get me treatment for. they also neglect to take care of my dog out of all of our animals from spite and treat her terribly. my back injury is so bad that some days i can’t even do simple tasks like wash dishes or shower.
i have the chance to move in with my boyfriend but i need money first so that i can take care of myself, my dog, and my personal needs. i have lost so much of my life and all of my teenage years to their abuse. please, please donate if you can and if not, please share this post. even if it doesn’t fit your blog, it would help me tremendously and i need all of the help i can get.
paypal: cavarose
paypal email: allyson1241@gmail.com
ko-fi: arc111
details of my abuse and why it’s important that i leave ASAP is under the cut.
she got angry at me for correcting her on something (I wasn’t even fucking mean about it, she says I have an attitude no matter how nice I am) and told me that I wasn’t allowed to go anywhere and that I’m stuck here. Her words. Then she told me to shut up and not talk to her, but then continues to scream at me, and shuts me up any time I try to defend myself or reason with her. She told me to give her my phone as punishment and I wanted to know why and THIS is what she said to me about it
This is how she treats me EVERY FUCKING DAY and I’m so sick of it, I shake so badly and have to hold back my tears otherwise she mocks me for crying
I hate her so much I just want to leave I can’t do this shit anymore
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